Can you tell me what's wrong with me?

no, there is nothing wrong with you...to be honest...i feel very sorry for you and i admire your strength to have delt with this for so long..if i were you id probably be wanting the same thing lol..theres nothing wrong for wanting a guy..once you find the right one he will be the one whos alway ther for you and protects you against the world...he'll be your superman :) good luck :) im sure youll find the right one...be strong girl